So I have decided that I McPie needs a clean slate. Now those who know me know that "clean" is not a word commonly used to describe much of anything in my life, I myself am quite clean, a HUGE fan of the bath in fact, also a huge fan of a clean kitchen, but most other things in my chaotic existence would hardly be described as "clean". This slate I speak of is going to be spotless, its going to sparkle and shine and everything wonderful I can think of. The only problem is, this slate is see-through. I have no idea what is on the other side. I have let go of my jobs, given up my apartment, and am sailing away (well driving really, sailing just sounds so much more poetic). Where will I dock this ship you might ask? I have no idea really. However I have my first stop planned, the soon-to-be Mrs. Junior is taking me in as she continues on her successful journey... because well, she invited me, and then insisted, and frankly it scares the Jack in the BeJesus Box out of me and this is exactly what I need right now....to exist in my fears, accept them, and move the heck on.
Hot Body and Plus Size Model are sensing the changes ahead, and it isn't exactly something I can explain to them, I mean people don't necessarily understand what I am doing, how are dogs supposed to right? There is a possibility that they will be joining me on my travels, but there is also a chance that they will be taking a vacation from me. I am torn about the role my mutts play in my clean slate. I have never treated them or felt like they were children until I really started considering how it would affect my life if they weren't there every single day. Many tears shed today over this one. Plus Size Model could handle the changes, but Hot Body would be a mess tooling around back and forth with me and that would send Plus Size Model into a tizzy and the canine world in which I live would surely implode.....this is what I would like to avoid as I am trying to make this journey about me. I think other people would be better parents to them than I could be in the next chapter and it is breaking my heart. Plus Size Model, Hot Body, and Myself all deserve stability and it is my responsibility to find it for us.
In the Pursuit of my own smiles, I am keeping myself open to everything and everyone (accept for the Southern man who tried to pick me up on the plane this morning, I am not open to him, he almost convinced me to meet him for a drink until my dear friend Miami and I did a little recon and found lovely pictures of he and his wife online, so no, I am not open to this man....oh also, he tried to tell me the pictures I found were of his brother and then I asked why he and his brother had the same name and the best part is...he kept trying to get me to go for that drink even after that. I don't thinks so Southern Man I don't think so). Thanks Miami!
p.s. For every door that closes, another one opens.....and if it doesn't....open it your dang self!
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